Could I have something along the lines of social phobia?

To me it sounds like self esteem issues or that others have one up on you.When the truth is they don't.Trust me I work with many people on a daily basis.And the crap I hear from some of my co workers is enough to make me heave.Don't give these crud's that power! You fear rejection also.But we are all in the same boat.No matter how others fake it.We are all human and fear hurt and rejection.Positive self talk is the first step in seeing yourself as a good ,loving person and friend.